so, get this. Me corkey and Nick are planning to visit William. He is still in Tech School for the army so... naturally we're going to visit him.  He's in Virginia.   the best part is...  he is right between Virginia Beach and Busch Gardens.   i am so psyched!   woot!  but we're going there June 11th-14th.  only a few weeks away.      yayayayay.

i've never been to Virginia...  plus Lizzy is in Virginia!  i just don't know where exactly...  i'm prolly no where close to you.  lol.   but William wants us to visit because he hasn't seen friends in over a year, thats how long he's been there.    he had even offered to pay for the hotel.  lol   i can't wait!!!    WOOOO!!!!

so.  me and nicky got our paychecks this week...  and both of us got just about 300$ (just shy of it...  by like 5 bucks)   and nick saw the other day that i was just looking at a Wii Fit...  so he fucking bought it for me.

i officially like yoga.  it's hard but i like it.  lol  i haven't started to eat any better yet but i plan to kinda soon.  lol  i want to drink just water... but it's kinda hard when all i do all day is make drinks at a Sonic drive-in.  lol.  the freaking super hula hoop thing kicked my ass the other night.  lmao.   when i got done i almost fell on the damn floor.  lmao.   it was suck.  but i had like 377 spins.  :)  go me.  i know, it's prolly sucky, but i don't care. 

oh.  and i passed all mah classes.   yeah bitches!!!   i was so sure i wasn't going to pass my Political Science class.   but i did with a C.  woot!   However, 2 A's a B and a C wasn't good enough for me to keep HOPE.  great.   i have a 2.84 GPA now.   *sigh*  i have to spend a lot of money to keep my GPA up next semester.   about 2000$ a semester. i guess i'll survive somehow.  i always do.  i might just take out a loan or start saving up with my paychecks over the summer.  good monies i hope.  *sighs*  shit....

Nick keeps making it out like i literally ruined his life because i "made him" go to college this year.  i told him that he can go back down to springfield as long as he wants to get his shit straight but he still says he won't.  so... whatever.


but yea.  Wii Fit.  and i love it.   maybe it'll get Nick off my back because i actually "play" it everyday.  lol.   i unlocked the plank last night.  o.m.g.  lol   i hate planks but i did it for 30 seconds.   and i sucked it up too.  lmao. 


*sigh*  i guess i got to go home now.   i still have an hour before i need to go to work...  i might play on the Fit for a while and then get ready to go.   ((call or text me if ya'll can or whatever...  my phone seems to have no purpose except to tell me the time lately, lol ((912-675-6037))))

woot!  me and Nick got jobs at the Sonic that corkey works at in Augusta.  we all works now.  lol   nick started on tuesday and i started on wednesday.  ((i had a drs. appt. tuesday))    my mom got me a lot of retainers for my nose ring b/c they said i was not allowed to have it at all.  so i suggested a retainer, and she said that if it isn't noticeable, then i can wear them.   took me forever to find some damn.   but they were in hot topic in the SAV.

I freaking hate the fountain ((drink machine))   it's lame and all i do is make drinks over and over.  starting to learn ice cream  which is lame too.     i think it's going to take forever to be a carhop.   4 realz. 

this spring break was not what i wanted.  lol  i needed to attempt to read 2 books and do a little bit of the 15 hours of community service i was supposed to do.  nothing.  i worked and played video games and slept.  lol   i read a couple of chapters in my Narratives of a Slave girl book last night though.

hopefully my english teacher isn't wanting a 2nd draft of this gay ass paper because it will be a suckily put together paper, no doubt.  esp. considering i have to work today.  good thing is that it's only until 6 pm.  :)

well..  i think i shall go and look up... stuff.  maybe i'll read some of the other book i haven't even looked at this spring break.  yay ((not))

 lmao.  yesterday was... i can't even explain, man.  it was just...  zomg.

well.  my english class was cancelled, the one i was supposed to have a "big" vocab test in...  but we didn't.  lol  i decided not to go to Psych either, we weren't doing anything in there anyways.  just went home and ate and... thats it.   when nick woke up i watched him play video games and fell asleep half way through like usual.  lol.  he took a shower and got ready to go talk to a manager at Pizza Hut.  we went and he talked and she said call back thursday.  

The suck starts happening.  english i have a test over a certain movie make of A Midsummer Night's Dream.  1999 version.  looked at every movie place in augusta.  every electronics store, except Circuit City, c'mon, they won't have it   they're going out of business.  lol   i everywhere within a 20 mile radius that i knew had movies.  everywhere.  i was getting pissed b/c it's one movie.  and i had to have it.   i dropped nick off at the house and went to the school to see if someone had it on reserve and if i could watch it.  they didn't.  i started looking online to see if i could stream it to my computer, no where would let me.  i found the blockbuster site and i wrote their numbers down since there was one on peach orchard. i called and they said they had one copy.  happy DAYS!   i told them to hold it and i would be there asap.  i got there formed an account with them just for that movie.  lol   i got it.    

By this time, i had dropped nick off like... an hour before.  only an hour or so, y'know.   i was driving up to park in front of corkey's car, like usual... when i see another car there...  it was Johns. i got so pissed so fast i couldn't even remember i was in the middle of the street and i forgot a little how to parallel park.  i was like fuming 4 reals.  I fixed the car up  lol   and i asked nick, who was outside sweeping ((which isn't normal for him being outside anyways)) and i was like...  are you fucking serious?!  he is here?  wtf?  

See, Corkey had told us Monday that she was going to break up with him for various reason.  many various reasons.   very good reasons.   and with these reasons there is no way a person can take back another person.   lol   but she broke up with him and nick helped because John was being all retarded and saying "I'm confused...  are you on your period?... you aren't thinking with logic.... you  should think this over, you're too emotional."  ((yeah, he's a dick that much.))    so that was last night.   

today... he's in my house...  he didn't tell anyone he was coming up...  and he just showed up. he was there to collect his xbox and stuff like that.  then he claimed his GPS was dead... so he is in the house "charging" it.  it takes my cell phone to be fully charged in 30 minutes.  30 mins and his GPS should be charged and his stupid ass should be gone.  but i went in the house, not a word said... not a sound.  and corkey's light is off in her room.   me and nick eat some  food and watch AMND. took 2 hours.  john still there, no sounds, nothing other than corkey coughing and some cats having sex outside.  lmao. 

well...  another hour passes and me and nick are getting ready to go to bed.  actually we were kinda flirting and being dorks.  lol   i was in the bathroom brushing my teeth and corkey finally comes out of the dark room... and in the bathroom.  he face was puffy and eyes were bloodshot...  it was messed up.  i stopped the teeth brushing and i hugged her.  she cried on me for a few minutes and nick said we need to go walking. so me and corkey went walking.  

she told me all that had happened, why she broke up with him, what he had been saying to her about herself and about her friends and about her family.  all i can say is if any person, even my best friend, had said this kind of shit, that person would be having a black face, not eye.  FACE. i told her i was scared of what i was going to do when i got back to that house because he hadn't just said stuff about her, but me. and he said stuff about her family.  they happen to be like my family too.  i hate him. ugh

but we went back to the house b/c she didn't have shoes on and she still wanted to walk more.  nick asked me if he should make him leave and i said ti was best.  i told him stuff to say and me and corkey left once again.   we talked more, mainly about his and her family. and we got back to the front of the school and nick was walking towards us. he got to us and said John is gone and that he said that he hated me, b/c i was filling corkey's head with bullshit and that i was pathetic.  John kept talking about himself, as usual, and said corkey is nothing without him and that if he leaves he was gone for good.  but he said after basic for him was over, he'll come back and see if "Corkey has cleared her head" 

sorry John!  you're an asshole.  you don't have any friends. no one likes you!  just because your family is "rich" doesn't mean shit.   and why call someone pathetic when... oh...  you're still living in your parents house....  when i am in college...  in my own house... 

fucking asshole.  he deserves to burn in hell. in fact, hell is too good for him.  i dunno what's worse than hell.   but he should be there.  

 not much going on here, really.   Nick applied at Pizza Hut, and since he is the only one with experience with pizza that applied, most likely he'll get one of the 4 positions as a cook.   bitchin.  lol   finally.  one of us will have a job.   when that's all done, i'll start looking for me a job and we'll go from there.   yay.   

Nick got money from his mom for his tarantula ((i got him a Rose-haired tarantula, btw.  he named her Bambi and she is adorable!!))  but she gave him a lot of money.  he got a new cage for her and some other stuff.  I had been talking about getting a tattoo...  have it all planned out and where it's going.  everything!!  lol   but he said if he has the money left over he'll get it for me if it isn't a lot of money.  we went to our tattoo shop and asked how much it would cost, 80$.  he has 74$.  then i got the other half of tax money back and we can afford it w/o even getting money out of the bank.  yay.   I'm getting it Thursday.   It's a 4 point star ((black)) and it's gonna have 4 other points from the corners that will be red.  It'll be 2 inches high and 1 inch wide.  i am ex-CITED!!!!   lol     the guy that is tattooing me is a graduate of SCAD ((he told me b/c i told him my cell # and it started with 912...  he was like... Savannah?  lol))   oh and it's going on the inside of my foot back by the heel.  before the achilies tendon and after the big ankle bone.  lol   i feel like i'm not explaining where it's going very good.  lol

yay nick and money!!  lol  

hmm   i want candy, 4 reals. *looks at candy machine*   well, i gots class in about 25 minutes.   better get this candy and eat it before then.  haha.

BYES!  I MISS EVERYONE!!!

The BBC allegedly believes most people will have only read 6 of the 100 books here:

How do your reading habits stack up? [bold those books you've read in their entirety, italicize the ones you started but didn't finish]


1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible ((it might be a while before i finish the entire thing.  lmao))
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19 The Time Traveller’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding
69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80 Possession - AS Byatt
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo



11/100.  awesome.   i've been thinking about reading Dracula... but everyone, my english teacher included, says it's hard to read and understand.  hmm... i'm not sure if i've read some of them...  so i didn't bold them.  most of these i've read in high school.  lmao.

I feel much better today. yay!! i skipped another class yesterday because i just couldn't do it. lol. i went home and watched tv after Nick applied to Takosushi. The guy said he would almost definitely get hired as a cook. all we do now is wait for the phone to ring. lord knows we both need jobs, srsly bad. lol.

Corkey, her mom, and he new fling dude or whatever came over yesterday. the house was a horrible mess, but i really didn't care i was sick as a dog. lol. That guy reminds me of... someone i know. i dunno what his last name is, but his first name is Kyle, he used to go out with Cassie... and Corkey said he said that cassie broke up with him because he was "boring" that doesn't sound like cassie at all, to be honest. ((he was kinda boring though. barely talked and when he did he said weird stupid things.)) he also works night shift at Wal-Mart in Rincon. I just have a feeling i know him though my cousin Josh... which means he's a druggie if it's true. Both Nick and I couldn't get a clear vibe off of him. Nick says he doesn't like him... but that he's better than John. lol I can honestly say i don't know what to think about him... i'll end up asking cassie stuff about him... and if it's bad enough, i'll forewarn corkey, but she rarely takes my advice when i talk about guys. lol ((obviously))

I had a scare this morning. after i took my nice shower... i was putting my clothes on in the bathroom and my shirt caught my nose ring. zomg. then i tried to put it back in like i usually do but it wouldn't go in. when it did go it i noticed it hurt a little more than usual and then i re looked at it and i didn't see the bottom of it in my nose... somehow the L-shaped thing went into my skin... it was crazy!! i had been trying for almost an hour when i said "fuck it" and i left the house for school. but i grabbed a straight bar and tried for 30 minutes in my car... i was getting upset because i didn't want to get it re-pierced. that would suck. but somehow i got it through and i was- still am- very happy. it hurts though. ugh. i might as well keep this one in... until i rip it out on accident of course, which is what i do with these straight bars. i hate them. lol

i wish i had eaten that chicken in the fridge before i left... but whatever.

i'm gonna go now so that i can re-write this stuff for a little quiz in my upcoming english class. bYEs!

Jesus. I have been so sick for almost a week now. i was getting better and i felt fine yesterday and saturday... today... i feel like shit and i seem to be coughing up blood. not a lot but a little, which is bad i know. i plan on going to a doctor. i can't today because corkey is coming over plus my damn G4 advisor wants me to come in today which is retarded! i'll never be able to see corkey. *sigh* i think today is the day i'm gonna tell her i'm quitting G4, there is really no point to it. honestly.

ugh. i feel like shit, but i cannot miss anymore school. i practically missed thursday and friday of last week. which was stupid. i should have went to school. ugh.

the upside is that it's getting warmer here in Augusta. it's been in the 70's lately. i love it.

taxes are coming up too. my mom, dumbass, is making me go with her to McRay, Ga on VALENTINES DAY so she can do her taxes and see if he can do mine too. i don't want him to do mine. he costs 135$ i think that's wasteful and stupid... i think i'll just go with H&R Block i'm sure they're much cheaper and definitely not as far away. She is taking me from Valentines day. what a bitch. ughhh.

i feel like shit and my class is about to start... woopie. i'm just gonna finish up here and i shall update later, perhaps. ByeS!


p.s.: jess, tell me when you get your "presents".

i am so happy right now, 4reals!!! so far, i've been doing freaking awesome on all my first tests of the semester.

I made a 95 in History 2111 and i just found out i made a 98 on my first English 1102 class. I thought i bombed it too. In 10 Minutes i find out what i made on my Psych test too. i hope i did as well as i have on my other tests. :DD I so happy 4reals!

if i make a good grade on my psych test, me and nick shall go eat at a good place or something. lol

the celebration of me and my awesomeness!! ha ha

Today was a nice lazy day. Stayed in bed 'til... past 1. but eventually got up and went to wally world b/c me and nick wanted cereal and we didn't have milk. but we bought milk, P-nut butter, mayo, cookie dough, cake mix and frosting. lol more than we needed. Then we went to game stop... looked around, but for some reason... that area of Augusta was extremely packed. i mean... everything! GameStop was so packed. only one register was open and it was retarded. 4reals. we left and decided to go back later.

got home ate cereals... watched nick play Oblivion. he cooked me cookies b/c i've been dreaming, literally, of cookies. he's been dreaming of watching Finding Nemo, so we'll be getting that tomorrow. lol we decided to get games and stuff we don't want to sell to GameStop and i decided to sell the PSP. i literally NEVER use it, and i have a lot of stuff for it, so i gathered all that stuff, but got only about 80$ from the system, plus it had to be refurbished b/c it has a scratch on the screen. but all together i got like... 87$. we had 2 DS games, a lot of PSP movies and games, a pokemon game for a gameboy, and the PSP. all that for 87-ish $ i think. so we got three games with that. Spore. the 50$ one since Nicky has been wanting it for a while, Paper Mario for gamecube, but we can play it on the Wii, and Nick got Anubis II but it rated a low score on one of his gaming websites. lol it looks kiddie too... lmao.

came back to the house to get nick's laptop, and he just downloaded all the spore stuff on there. we're at the school being all bored. lol

Tomorrow we are planning on going down the road and i'm applying to the Gas station right there ((ask corkey, it has AMAZING coffee there)) and nick said he's gonna apply for the gas station and the wife saver right there beside it. rawness. indeed. hopefully we'll get those jobs. they're really close to the house. if i don't get a job there, i'll go down walton way and try to get a job at subway or something. i think the gas station would be better money anyways, i think... whatev though.


hmm.. what else to talk about... well, i can tell you one thing for certainly. The Nestea brand of Green tea is most definitely better than the Lipton green tea. Nestea is the shit.


i guess i'm done now. Ta-Ta

I never posted about my classes. i'm so lame. lol I'm actually supposed to be studying for a little test in English right now.... it's only 6 words, i'm sure i can handle it. lol

MWF i have Political Science first. he's an awesome teacher, he's got a PhD in POLSCI and he's from Ghana... therefore, he has a really thick accent thats a little hard to understand, but he cracks really perverted jokes a lot and the class laughs constantly. A lot of people like his name, Augustine Hammond. lol i thought he was gonna be a chick with Augustine as a first name. lol the only suck thing about this class is that we have to do a volunteer thing... the entire semester. one hour a week, not bad, but still damn. It has to be at one place and it has to be done from next week to the end of his class. at the end of this class we write a paper on how we've changed and what we've learned from doing the volunteer work. i guess i'll be going to the community center across the street from my house... it's close and convenient. class is from 10-10:50 AM

Second class of the day is History with Dr. Fissel. i cannot even explain how fucking raw this dude is. lol he claims to take over the world one day and pretty much kill everything. lol. He's really into history though and that totally makes a difference. lol he's a strange little man... he paces back and forth and complains about the room he's in. His hair is longer than mine and he's just raw. Oh yeah, while he's pacing, he tells jokes and makes fun of people.... practically the stand up comedian. lol class is from 11-11:45


TR i have two classes. the first one is English 1102. The teacher is the epitome of english teacher. lol she is kinda old.... has grey hair... and a lot of it... and all that hair is put in a bun on the top of her head. She wears long tweed skirts and she just looks like the stereotype of an english teacher lol. She is really cool though, i love this English class better than the 1101 i took last semester. It's all short story reading and poetry. bitchin!! we have to read a book called Billy Budd by Herman Melville... but it's a short book... so yeah. class is from 10-11:15 AM

second class is awesome. Psych of Adjustment. Teacher is raw...he sits there and he's all like... okay... we're gonna do this this and this.... a few tests the whole semester... they'll be easy though... you stand up once and talk about something that changed your life and made you who you are today ((no Disney Land stories, i will fail you.)) haha he's cool. However, the book is a little paperback thing, there are none in Augusta... at all. if i ordered it from the Bookstore, it would be over 100$ bullshit. so a few minutes ago i found it online for 55$ total. bitchin. i win! fuck the bookstore. :) class from 11:30-12:45




thats all my classes. i love only having 4 classes. 5 classes last semester kicked my ass. 4reals. Corkey, Mrs. Pat, and my mom came down yesterday. it was nice. we ate steak, which i've been wanting forever... and my mom bought me my last x-mas present. We went to Sam's and looked at returned TVs. There was one out of the box, no papers for just over 500$ so she bought it. a 42'' flat screen tv. it's awesome to play video games on it 4 reals. lol.

btw... Super Paper Mario for the Wii is the awesomest game ever. you can be in 2-d and 3-D. it's freaking raw. i'm over half done with the game and i just re-rented it last night. I've spent over 13 hours on it too. i'm lame. lol

enough. i have to study for my little test thing. lol Byes!

So, when i got home on the 6th of Jan... the house was still a mess ((i was hoping someone would rob the trash in the house, but, alas, didn't happen. damn. haha)) We realized that it was still cold as shit and that it was time to clean. well, i realized it. took nick a second to realize it. lol. We both wanted to take a shower but realized woah! no hot water. wtf? we looked at the hot water heater. it was still leaking, of course... but... it looked bad. we went to Lowe's and we were gonna try to change the element in there, but we couldn't. went back home and just decided to call Mrs. Lillie ((landlord)) she got someone out there on the 7th in the afternoon. (one day with out a shower SO FAR.)he said... wow. this thing is horrible. the water connects are backwards and the elements are shot. you need a new waterheater. he got permission from whoever and installed another one. BUT! he couldn't hook it up. he said the wire connected to the water heater wasn't big enough and he was surprised it didn't already start a fire. ((wow)) he refused to hook it up, so he called the landlord and she decided to get an electrician to come out... the next day. ((two days with out a shower... ew)) Nick really wanted a shower, so he fought the ice cold water and took a really quick and hilarious one. it was real funny.

So the next day, the Electrician comes... he looks at the wire and he's all like... yea. wrong wire. where's the breaker box. i showed him and he was like omg. this is a 50 year old breaker box. the wires are burnt out and wtf are fuse boxes doing here? He said he refused to hook up the water heater until we had a NEW BREAKER BOX he said he was coming back to work TUESDAY but re-made up his mind and said the next day ((which was today)) he would bring some friends and hook it all up. Thank God. Three days is a long time to go without a shower. you feel all... UGH!!! Honestly, it felt like a lot longer than three days. lol SO now. we have a better breaker box that allows are power to go through it and a brand new water heater. everything is hooked up great and now, even more great news.

Corkey is coming to visit me tomorrow afternoon!! yay. her mom is coming too to look at Augusta and to look at the house. We cleaned our asses off today. he room looks a million times better than it did in the beginning lol i just have to wash clothes and straighten up the bedroom. other than that... it's all done. Yay, cleaner house! love it!

Welcome to the 2009 edition of getting to know your friends! Try not to be lame and spoil the fun! If you get tagged, copy this entire survey and paste into your own blog, change all of the answers so that they apply to you. Then tag friends to do the same.

1. What time did you get up this morning? i woke up many times but actually got up at like 12 maybe 1.
2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds.
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. it was awesome.
4. What is your favorite TV show? gosh. Nip//Tuck, The Tudors, and cartoons like south park, family guy, and this new one called Super Jail it's f-in hilarious!
5. What do you usually have for breakfast? never wake up in time for b-fast.
6. What is your middle name? Ophelia
7. What food do you dislike? Spinach. well if its like out of the can i won't eat it or raw leaves. i'll eat it on pizza and stuff.
8. What is your favorite CD at the moment? i dunno...
9. What kind of car do you drive? tC still. n.n
10. Favorite sandwich? hm... a jerk chicken samach with habanero sauce. *droolz*
11. What characteristic do you despise?retardedness. if you act just plain stupid.
12. Favourite item of clothing? cute shirts.
13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? somewhere really pretty... tropical like even. if not somewhere in Europe.
14. Favourite brand of clothing? ummm i don't really know.
15. Where would you retire to? somewhere i will be comfortable in the US
16. What was your most recent memorable birthday? a few years ago... my 17th or 18th party... we played kiddie games, i had a disco ball up, music, the strobes... and it was awesome! a lot of my friends came too it was rawness.
17. Favourite sport to watch?football when it gets down to the playoffs.
18. Furthest place you are "tagging" this? wherever the Marines drag him. lol prolly Virginia though.
19. Person you expect to send it back first? *shrugs*
20. When is your birthday? December 15th
21. Are you a morning person or a night person? Night person. most def.
22. What is your shoe size? between 9 and 11.
23. Pets? i have a pet snake i named Lestat. n.n
24. Any new and exciting news you’d like to share with us?not really..
25. What did you want to be when you were little? ummm of course i wanted to be a singer, then i realized i can't sing lmao.
26. How are you today? i feel pretty damn good today..
27. What is your favourite candy? gummi bears no doubt !!!
28. What is your favourite flower? Carnations. i dunno why they smell so good and they can be put into any color.
29. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to? um Jan 5th thats gonna be a very busy day. 4 reals.
30. What’s your full name?Jacqueline Ophelia Dester.
31. What are you listening to right now? TV.
32. What was the last thing you ate?Pizza.
33. Do you wish on stars? Not any more
34. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? i dunnooooo
35. How is the weather right now? it's kinda cold, but it's because it's night lol
36. The first person you spoke to on the phone today? uhhh i dunno.
37. Favourite soft drink? pepsi stuff.
38. Favourite restaurant? cheddars is fucking amazing.
39. Real hair colour? a nasty dishwater brown. ugh
40. What was your favourite toy as a child? horses and a stuffed animal named Measles. she's at my house in augusta right now.
41. Hugs or kisses? kisses.
42. Chocolate or Vanilla? vanilla.
43. Coffee or tea? Both
44. Do you want your friends to email you back? what?
45. When was the last time you cried? um not today, most likely yesterday. or the day before.
46. What is under your bed? umm... clothes (in augusta).
47. What did you do last night? we were driving home from St. Augustine until 1am... then i was home and i slept.
48. What are you afraid of? death, failure, stuff like that.
49. Salty or sweet? sweet.
50. How many keys on your key ring? three. one to my house in augusta, one to my parents house, and one to my car.
51. Favorite day of the week? ummm friday i suppose.
52. If you can choose your talent, what would it be? any talent would do me good.
53. Do you make friends easily? I dunno.
54. How many people will you tag this to? everyone... even though like 5 people are friends of mine on here.
55. How many will respond? it doesn't matter. lol

it seems so... irritating.

for some reason i just saw it tonight that i have almost zero friends. i mean, sure... i have friends... but best friends... i think i've lost almost all my best friends. it's not because we don't care... some of us have just began to work... some have begun to go to college. some are planning on the military... but some just don't care and have replaced everything they had in high school with shit completely different.

i've noticed that since i've left... no one talks to me other than my mom. i can't be on the computer everyday like some people... but i have a phone on me constantly and even if i'm doing homework i can always talk. i even post my schedule online so people can call me between classes. not one call though. i've gotten used to the quiet in augusta... all thats left is me and nick talking and watching movies... cooking food. i'd get an occasional text in the middle of the night (cassie lol) but usually, thats about it.

i don't want to say i'm lonely... it's just that everyone seems to have moved on to other friends and i miss being me. the me with all the friends i talked to everyday and the person that always had plans. the person that remembered everything... the person that always smiled and laughed and listened to all kinds of music and had fun with everyone.

i'm not saying i don't have fun anymore... because i do... i just miss everyone and i feel isolated from who i used to be. Nick always says that i never smile and i always seem depressed. i guess it's just boredom... i dunno.

i just want my memory back, i want to be happy all the time... i want to feel like people actually remember me and love me... i have people like that... but not as many as i used to.

Maybe this year just hasn't been a good one. maybe it's just this year... hopefully 2009 will be a happy year. maybe no one else will die and maybe it'll be a good year. i guess i can only hope to find myself somewhere that i can feel like myself again.

Well, today was very much nice.

I went to Augusta by myself today and got some bills and shampoo and little stuff like that. I also went up to the school real quick and asked about late registration and stuff like that. they said that i can add and drop for free on the 5th and 6th as long as it's not below 12 hours of class, which it won't be. she also told me that the HOPE scholarship is coming in for me which means i didn't lose hope... and since i didn't, neither did Nick. that is a huge relief to me, prolly to nick too.

i got 2 letters in the mail that said me and nick both passed the Regents' exam with a 2. woot woot. another big relief... not so much to me, but for nick, i'm sure.

bad thing is, the gas bill is double what it should be... i really don't think we use gas that damn often. it's retarded.

Tomorrow is ((dun dun dun dunn!!!)) One Year Anniversary for me and my Nicolyte! I can't wait to hang out with him tomorrow i dunno what we're gonna do... but i'm sure it'll be funly. woot.

oh. and nick's mom has decided to get me a ball python. it's a he... and it comes with a cage, heat lamps, and stuff in it's cage like the little stick they crawl on and a heat rock. I dunno what i should call him... i can't call him Jiggaboo like my last snake.... it's kinda offensive to black people and i live in a pretty black neighborhood. lmao. ya'll help me pick out names. Remember, it's a HE snake. n.n

I'm taking a page from Lizzy's book. this one caught my eye a little.

I'm not much of a cook at all, i helped my mom with all the food this year, mainly the stuffing/dressing. it takes a good day to make that stuff. can you say 14 pounds of boiled chicken? lmao. even though this is a small, three person family, we usually make food enough for a family of 12. lol. i asked my mom for a Turducken this year, but she forgot to preorder that shit because it's too hard to make, especially New Orleans style. a Turducken, if you don't already know, is a duck, inside a chicken, inside a turkey. a 3 layer boneless meat orgasm... NOM. you can special order them anytime from Kroger, but my madre forgot, damn her.

I would never go out on Thanksgiving. I would rather spend my time in the kitchen cooking a meal that i know tastes good and isn't that damn expensive. that's right!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Wasn't very awesome though. I really REALLY wanted nick and his family to come over here and eat with us. but for some reason... "something came up" (( Honestly, on Thanksgiving, what the hell comes up?)) so we sat here... with a Boston butt, a turkey, half a ham, macaroni, stuffing, collard greens, deviled eggs, sweet potatoes, and a green been casserole. there were only three of us to eat almost none of this food. we had planned on 9 or more people here and there was just us three. totally lame thanksgiving. i really wanted to see nick and his family too.

i decided to go to the Mall tomorrow and fight for Nick's presents since most likely they'll be on super sale. :)

*sighs*

anyways. my mom got me these pj pants. they're amazing. they're light blue, realllly soft... and they have penguins on them muahhhaaa!! i love them so much. they're so warrrmmmm woot.

my mouth hurts.

i hope my Christmas is better than my Thanksgiving. at least i get to see cassie, jess, nick, joel, and cassie's guy, Kenny. i think i'm planning on going to the movies twice this weekend. i'm just scared because i don't want nick to think that i'm going to be "ignoring him" when i'm with you guys... he always says it and it makes me feel like a horrible person because... like... i see him literally everyday and i don't get to see or talk to pretty much any of my friends. but Saturday night we're going to the movies with Buddy, i think. then sunday we're ((hoping)) to go to the movies with you guys. he don't know that yet. lol.

i'm talking to you guys thru texts and all, but for some reason i feel so lonely. it sucks.